This old ugly contest of who\u2019s on first,
whose prize. I feel ready for tit-and-bum
journalism, finally, ready to
invent new commonplaces, to allow
myself to imagine how it would feel
to believe what I report. But, wary,
I stick to reading. The invitation
writ on the wall of the restroom beckons:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNo strings of any sort.\u201d Of course critics
know that the truly beautiful don\u2019t need
to advertise. Unless making a show
of wanting is in now? I\u2019ve always been
proud of how I earned this reputation
as an authority on wanting. Did
you earn yours? Did he, his? Did she, hers? Fight
not these incessant wars. Where shall we take<\/p>\n\n\n\n
our long holiday? Nowhere near here, please,
where we\u2019d be forced for consistency\u2019s sake
to maledict the dead. Let us go far
to somewhere sunny and out of reach. Where
any old dead log might burst into leaf
and flourish like a fashion magazine.
Is that me? A dead log crying to be
made anew a god above all regret\u2014<\/p>\n\n\n\n
mired in the process, not nearly half-
baked. When you touch the pan I tremble like
a custard. I record the testament
of any old partially crushed dead log,
suited only to be supervisor
to paper wasps in their dry catacombs.
In the hotels I stay in, I dream of
knowing the people I hear in the hall.<\/p>\n\n\n\n