She jogs the empty corner of the shopping center lot,
where barberries catch the dead leaves.
The wind fills her Buzz Lightyear coat,
thrashing and dingy at the elbow.
The bus hulks against the wind.
She stops and eyebrows my truck
when I wave her across. She grins like the boy
in the shopping cart I saw an hour ago,
in his own Buzz shirt, grin full of stars
at the galaxy he was discovering,
the world slow as understanding. The woman in the lot
already knows what it means to miss
the bus, to be late, to dare to run in front of a car
when you cannot see the driver, your hair a tangle
in a wind that, outside of any car, only you can feel.
The three-finger wave I give is barely visible
above the steering wheel, a hand
of threat and grace, which she won’t know
without that first step. She jogs the crosswalk, the bus
heaves and hisses, its windows reflecting her arms
and shoulders, her face watching the ground,
where the wind shoves leaves in every direction.
between waves woven
so tight they bury the
wreckage,
trust the current to breathe
you to the surface
& catch the breath in the split
second between breaks
before
brine heaves
let the salt sting,
a sky so swollen
asphyxiates, let the wind
out of your lungs
let it wail,
hammer against the bluffs,
the ocean has never been afraid
to rage.
Asian tigress
and a brave Kazakh kitty
purrs quietly, sneaks up,
meanwhile fear of enemies
as the holiday approaches.
Body armor factory,
a fragile girl built
national glory and honor.
You, Madina, deserve it.
I thought I was lucky
impervious but salt eats
away at everything eventually and
the sandstone bluffs collapse and
twenty-nine is a landslide after heavy
rain
a total loss the cliff
can’t rebuild but it can erode
into something
new like the sand
I am breaking
away from the rock
I was cut from
A battalion is born
from former police officers,
wear a chevron
take the patch and medallion.
Training ahead
blood, sweat, and loss,
shame, I’m in a warm bed.
the lamp is my new favorite
it’s brass
and the whole thing gets hot when it’s been on awhile
and the lights bend and move
and it’s perfect next to the pull out bed by the fireplace
and it reminds me of the ones
in my grandparents’ house in hendersonville
where squirrels come to the porch for walnuts
where sometimes, reading in the green chair,
you can see a black bear roaming
where my sister and I used to sprint
without abandon down the golf course hill
in our swim suits while the sprinklers ran
back when catching fireflies in jars
and looking for frogs with flashlights after dark
was enough
I found one that still had a tail, once
not a tadpole, but not fully a frog
caught between one thing
and the other.