There are these moments in my life when I feel like I can stop time, but time is a fickle thing that doesn’t stop for anyone and I realized this the day I got a call from my mom telling me my grandma had seven days to live but she died in three at three in the morning and I wonder how three could be a lucky number if it left death in its wake, waking me up in the middle of the night with nightmares of a frightening, old woman who imitated the gentle, caring nature of my grandma and I read back now and think that half the things I’ve written are cliche and the other half too sad so I toss them out to write about a cafe where the cold air isn’t really leaking in, but leaking out because… the condensation creeps along the windows so slowly, no one notices, until you look up and see how the once red glow of the sign across the street has faded to a pink and this color blurs with the black night, so dark you can barely distinguish the road or the frosted cars that drive along it, but hot tea with steamed milk wards off the chill that slips in your soul and the well-lit cafe that you think should be warm, but your tea is no longer steaming and there must be a leak somewhere that allows winter to seep back in and you wonder, how easily it sneaks into you and your heart and body and thoughts and you tense, when you realize, that cold has always been there.
Claire Webb is an undergraduate student at ETSU where she is studying English and Spanish with a Creative Writing minor. She has lived all over the United States, seven states and counting. She loves hiking, drawing, and playing the guitar. Claire’s first published work, a short story called “Briar Forest,” was published in Chattanooga State’s literary journal, The Phoenix, 2019 edition. She has also published her short story, “The Girl Who Flew to the Moon,” and her poem, “A Map of Places I Don’t Know,” in the 2020/2021 edition of The Phoenix.