the pain of wanting to be hungry feeling guilty for craving a proclivity for self starvation for hiding food under napkins offering to wash dishes to scrape off uneaten food without eyebrows being raised
tortilla chips and peanut butter drinking water to feel full cigarettes are hunger suppression they make you look so cool layering sweaters and turtlenecks “this style is the newest trend” shaking cold in the middle of summer “it’s like she’s 90 pounds with her clothes soaking wet”
i’m just not hungry mom i swear i’ll eat later “oh i’m getting lunch with friends” i’m trying not to eat so many sweets “That made me sick last right, remember?” oh i had that food last night don’t worry it’s okay i’ll try again tomorrow.
Joely Ford is 20 years old and currently getting her Bachelor’s Degree at Cumberland University in English and Creative Writing. She has been published in Novus Literary Arts Journal and is a writer for the Cumberland Dispatch.
