Month: May 2021

Emergence

In the days when Pittsburgh was covered 

by clouds of smog, cold-faced walkers 

navigated city blocks only by 

the neon lights of storefronts. 

MAX’S, JAMES ST, WHOLLY’S.


A time when the city was known

only by shoe to sidewalk,

for the upper floors of buildings 

were lost to the heavens. 

Like ants crossing a large field, 

the only way home, to recount 

each and every step. 


I wonder what it was like 

when the smog finally cleared? 

I think about families who lived 

in cramped row homes, tacted to 

steep-sloped hillsides, like patches of glitter 

barely hanging on to a 3rd grader’s school collage. 


I imagine that first spring morning 

and the mother climbing up to the 3rd floor 

to clean the modest back windows. 

A common task that would leave her white cloth 

black with soot, from distant smokestacks

settling over months of invisible rain. 


Yet, on this day, as she finishes, 

she would for the first time gaze out 

to see the entire city, presenting itself

like the blooming of white trilliums.


Steel and glass skyscrapers glistening gold 

from sunlight streams, standing tall and silent, 

garnering reverence simply by their size and stillness. 

And the blue river waters exhaling 

a long-held sigh.

The Sensibilities of the Smallest Nesting Doll

                                                                      I was a child

                                                              of cool-patterned skin

                                                           Nesting doll in winter attic

                                                             Layers of paper-mache

                                                               In a frosted cocoon.

                                                         I gazed at lightning windows

                                                   While the others wept at darkness

                                              My mouth was kissed by thunder rumbles

                                          As my unshaken palms soothed trembling walls. 

                                     I knew the transience of playgrounds, fast friendships

                                    That only spanned sandboxes, ending with setting sun.

                                    I saw fate as fact in action: three dogs, then eldest left.

                                      Mortal math, quick tears melted into matter-of-fact.

                                          Dense glue decayed under hurried paint when

                                            Spring discovered gold in the sun. Paper

                                                   Cracked hairline fractures until I

                                                     Burst out and began to bloom.

Planting Seeds

Fall from my palms, then hit the dirt.

Sink beneath the soil, then begin to cry.

Don’t stop until you’ve given 

All of your tears, back to your mother, then

Let her hand them back to you, one by one, 

As you move through time.

Collect them like they’re diamonds.

Reabsorb them like they’ll take you home.

Make a sustained effort to understand them, and

When you have enough, begin to

Run towards the sun with everything you’ve got.

Until one thousand leaves sprout from your chest,

Until you’re sobbing fruit.

Aglio e Olio

Remember those late buttered

parmesan noodles mother made

              when you were young and sick

              and needed something simple?


Wednesday’s leftover cold

spaghetti reheated, worried wet 

              with starched water, sliced garlic, 

              adding an herbal handful, fever breaker.


Your mother is gone,

I am with you now.

              But the bug on the page

              crosses my words 


with tiny feet, tearing my focus

from your desert past.

              I’ll make it today – 

              just call me Jon Favreau.


Air bubbles surround 

browning garlic, aromatic

              in your small straw nest.

              Sliced so dangerously thin


I clipped my talon

and felt the puncture 

              as I tossed bits of red pepper

              in the hot, black iron.


I swirl the pasta

in your sauce. Minced 

              parsley, added last.

              My tense hand stings again 


squeezing summer lemon,

turning everything thick. 

              I watch your scarlet mouth 

              waiting on my bed.


Oil coats the corner of your open lip,

              dropping your fork

              to ask for more.

Night to Her Birds

on a black piece of paper

more shades of black

gliding, a stream on a map

the doodles, shapes of dreams

in quiet words


float, my traveling birds,

this February canvas

is yours, say the formidable

clouds


eyes of stars, blind

as dyed red hair, a veil

behind a grotto of gloom-

illuminate as I walk


a friend’s house calling

a studio apartment above

a Cape Air office,

eight college kids, a stray cat,

I notice north-south spanning

as if a flag bleached

underneath

as dark red and gray red

conflict for a muse


the birds in unison in a strange voice

call for a hope of a home

they will chase all their life,

with a night running after them,

the mother pleads: stay


I walk inside an aroma down

a stairway, late night curry,

my ears still ringing of that

strange call. A night to her

birds, hope you find what

you’re leaving me for

VALENTINE SWEET CROSSES AT THE MOUTH OF THE HIGHWAY

              High school feels overgrown and unsteady. A doggy pants in the car window,

and so many things are on their way to me.                                                         I put my hair up and

expect a halo. I’m here now, and for what it’s worth when I open the window I feel like I fit

within. I see numbers growing brightly, a catch in my breath as I spy a little lucky patch of

clovers.                                      Spotted and friendly.

              Nothing is a waste! I’m cooking rice and juggling so much within the palms of my head.

A plush membrane unfolds like the tongue of a pearls within. Do you go to school? Normal

right, like a normal person? Do you know where you’re going? Do you think yourself deserving

or did you fit yourself inside their pocket lining, soft and sighing in a tone only sweethearts hear.

              This guy sits at the head of the table and has the nerve to tell me that he misses his little

home made in mud. In a way that feels like:

                                         I miss it when the women wore their red little checkered aprons and would

                                         lay down their life on the nearby bus stop for his skin. You miss when

                                         they would wiggle and blush, as you threw a window at an old car. Beer

                                         collects in pools of sweat, a smashed bottle and pleading. She knows this

                                         because she’s heard this before. Not all papa’s are like sweat and stingy

                                         breath filled of onion and tomato, but sometimes the world feels too small

                                         and when you break a mirror for a glass shard it feels like you can do

                                         anything.          Now, in case anyone gets too close, I shape my eyes like

                                         daggers and turn my head quick.

I check all around me, and sometimes the shuffling footsteps soft—

              of my shadow on bare winter flora frightens me. Usually I’m the one

              who strays, and if anything, I’d at least like to get too close to the sun.


              You point your fingers to the sun, quick, before it sets!

NOVUS Literary and Arts Journal
Lebanon, TN