Movement

There are no orchids here, and no long shore

teeming with raucous life, no salted wings

rising above the multicolored boats,

no overwhelming breezes, and no tides

rising, impelling everything that floats

to shore or seaward where no warbler sings,

and no palm trees, waving their endless fronds.


Instead there’s only heat: the algaed ponds

cannot reflect the sky or even trees,

birches grown bare above them, whose bare limbs

are falling constantly to riversides,

and floating downstream where a viper swims

in wait, for me or you, and all of these

impressions have combined to replicate


the feeling of an ever closing gate.

I want to leap it, get away, become

something completely other, changed somehow

just by the landscape, as my life divides

between the endless blossom and the bough,

walking in rhythm to a restless drum

to Panama, Maldive, or Singapore.

Planting Seeds

Fall from my palms, then hit the dirt.

Sink beneath the soil, then begin to cry.

Don’t stop until you’ve given 

All of your tears, back to your mother, then

Let her hand them back to you, one by one, 

As you move through time.

Collect them like they’re diamonds.

Reabsorb them like they’ll take you home.

Make a sustained effort to understand them, and

When you have enough, begin to

Run towards the sun with everything you’ve got.

Until one thousand leaves sprout from your chest,

Until you’re sobbing fruit.

Great Plains Food Bank

The wind is in the trees again, and I’m thinking it’s a wonder

the body can move. The way the mother at the Fargo food bank

fingers a can of concentrated juice. The way the line keeps

heaving forward. The way the child tugs the heavy skirt.

My job is to look for the elderly, help them load. Like the guy 

who grew up in Oslo and is still trying to make it to Bergen. 

It’s a straight shot on the train, he says, but you have to be 

in Norway to catch it. I lift his meat and yogurt onto a cart. 

I wait as he chooses nine of the least bruised carrots.

The trunk of his car has the smell of dried flowers, and his 

baguettes fit lengthwise easily. But before I help him lower

himself into the driver’s seat, and before his hands pass over

one another, turning into the northbound traffic, he tells me

I’m young. Tells me it’s spring. Says I should be out of here,

heading for Bergen. I know he’s right. I know he’s 

so goddamn right. I stand as still as I can as he leaves.



Reprinted from The Low Passions by Anders Carlson-Wee. Copyright (c) 2019 by Anders Carlson-Wee. Used with permission of the publisher, W.W. Norton & Company, Inc. All rights reserved. 

Youth and By Ourselves

Consider this and that

It wasn’t meant to be

The thing that is going to

Kill me is already on the inside.

There’s this small grandfather clock

Inside us all-

There are minutes of death.

Just the touch. Just this brief.

Where love slips away with the fare

But who’d ask for it back?

There was a time

I knew you though-

Hands, face, pendulum

And when we finally caught up with history

We were no less crueler than our parents.

Yet we were relentless, forgiving, unconditional

We were direction…in blue…on a road sign

Found everywhere…then suddenly…all at once…

Father. He misses mother and she’s been dead

For 24 years

I haven’t missed you that much and you are

so gone

Then I stepped away from the poem

Mid stanza…

We must have been sexton’s sad pencils to say

Those things back then.

But there are rooms for us now and anniversaries to

Commemorate,

In the perfect city someone has left everything

Including themselves. You. You should

Make sure you date and pen down

All the soft things that we said.

Because everyone will ask when it was,

How it happened- say something about it.

How the night rain spilled all over.

Our lives. Our soft soft and honest lives.

The Sensibilities of the Smallest Nesting Doll

                                                                      I was a child

                                                              of cool-patterned skin

                                                           Nesting doll in winter attic

                                                             Layers of paper-mache

                                                               In a frosted cocoon.

                                                         I gazed at lightning windows

                                                   While the others wept at darkness

                                              My mouth was kissed by thunder rumbles

                                          As my unshaken palms soothed trembling walls. 

                                     I knew the transience of playgrounds, fast friendships

                                    That only spanned sandboxes, ending with setting sun.

                                    I saw fate as fact in action: three dogs, then eldest left.

                                      Mortal math, quick tears melted into matter-of-fact.

                                          Dense glue decayed under hurried paint when

                                            Spring discovered gold in the sun. Paper

                                                   Cracked hairline fractures until I

                                                     Burst out and began to bloom.

County 19

I twist in my seat beside the woman who picked me up 

on County 19, reaching back to help her son 

eat his Happy Meal. I fly a french fry through the air,

thinking how weird it is to hitch a ride on the road 

I’ve driven so many times with my dad––

the route between our house and the old folks home 

where Grandma lasted alone for fourteen years. 

Each time we visited: the veins wider, bluer, 

the ankles thinner, the distances between bedsores 

diminished, the cheer my dad convinced himself to feel 

as he repeated the litany: I am your son. 

This is your grandson. We’re so happy to see you.

The woman asks me where I’m going 

and I say as far as you can take me,

but as we pass the old folks home I tell her to pull over. 

The boy is finished with his Happy Meal and now 

he points at the bruise on his elbow and says Ouch.

His mom nods at him in the rearview as I get out. 

That’s right, she says. Ouch. There is the low roofline,

the sign with a bible quote in changeable letters,

my grandma’s old window as blank as it was 

when she lived here, some earth dug up 

in the bordering cornfield for construction 

of a new wing. I think about barging through the doors 

and demanding to see Elizabeth Wee, making 

some kind of scene. I think about setting up camp 

in the hole in the cornfield and refusing to leave. 

But instead I wander the grounds for awhile. 

I lie in the parking lot’s grass island and watch 

the cornstalks feather the road with lank shadows, 

the sunlight dipping down into the tassels. 

I want speed. I want new people. To ditch 

this slow sanitary drain of golden light, 

my pastor parents and their immovable faith, 

this town’s brown river exhausting its banks. 

Elizabeth is underground. So is my cousin. 

Stones like polished teeth in the family plot. 

In the twilight I walk back to the shoulder 

and catch a ride from a farmer hauling a trailer 

stacked with hay bales three-high. When he asks me 

where I’m going I say as far as you can take me.



Reprinted from The Low Passions by Anders Carlson-Wee. Copyright (c) 2019 by Anders Carlson-Wee. Used with permission of the publisher, W.W. Norton & Company, Inc. All rights reserved. 

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