migrations/departures

migrations/departures

lines everywhere

in our path

in our words

in how we touch

each other

and the other


questions on travel:

              who beckons the sun’s return?

              what marks the hour?

              do minutes make it late?


someone told us [the uprooted]

today       your tongue will march backwards

                            it will turn a bow in its nest

and you will go thirsty

unless you learn a new name     for everything


and of your name     once melody

now cog grinding away

in a production     maquina


questions on time:

              are there still seven days?

              or one family with seven names?


where are the lines      we must avoid?

so traps don’t trigger a snag 


lines

              everywhere

a noise      demarcating      sleep from fright


a metal centipede devouring horizons

hides stowaways yearning     needing

to blur lines


we are all stowaways

              unannounced

              we come and depart

swaddled in swaths of wind

and flag

Black Ice

Bruised skies smoke as my lips turn cold.

I waited in the hospital but no one said your name.

I woke up and it didn’t go away.


Blind wings of winter beat against our garden door.

I tried to write a letter but the moment never came.

The empty houses rage and flare.


Glaze of bladed snowflakes makes the day run pale.

I watched our candled windows stumble numbly to the dark

But I woke up and I still know who you are.

The Last Poem I Ever Wrote

I think my Zoloft stopped working.

Pen in hand. Words in head.

But blank canvas – blank canvases


Maybe my Zoloft stopped working…

Or we’ve had 12-too-many rainy days

And the canvases haven’t held paint since May

              Or April

                            Or March


Yes, I’m certain that my Zoloft stopped working.

But I zip the sides of my skull open

And drop 100 milligrams in, like a child swallowing candy.

They dissolve in stomach acid

And happy chemicals float to my brain

              where there are

                            only blank canvases.

VALENTINE SWEET CROSSES AT THE MOUTH OF THE HIGHWAY

              High school feels overgrown and unsteady. A doggy pants in the car window,

and so many things are on their way to me.                                                         I put my hair up and

expect a halo. I’m here now, and for what it’s worth when I open the window I feel like I fit

within. I see numbers growing brightly, a catch in my breath as I spy a little lucky patch of

clovers.                                      Spotted and friendly.

              Nothing is a waste! I’m cooking rice and juggling so much within the palms of my head.

A plush membrane unfolds like the tongue of a pearls within. Do you go to school? Normal

right, like a normal person? Do you know where you’re going? Do you think yourself deserving

or did you fit yourself inside their pocket lining, soft and sighing in a tone only sweethearts hear.

              This guy sits at the head of the table and has the nerve to tell me that he misses his little

home made in mud. In a way that feels like:

                                         I miss it when the women wore their red little checkered aprons and would

                                         lay down their life on the nearby bus stop for his skin. You miss when

                                         they would wiggle and blush, as you threw a window at an old car. Beer

                                         collects in pools of sweat, a smashed bottle and pleading. She knows this

                                         because she’s heard this before. Not all papa’s are like sweat and stingy

                                         breath filled of onion and tomato, but sometimes the world feels too small

                                         and when you break a mirror for a glass shard it feels like you can do

                                         anything.          Now, in case anyone gets too close, I shape my eyes like

                                         daggers and turn my head quick.

I check all around me, and sometimes the shuffling footsteps soft—

              of my shadow on bare winter flora frightens me. Usually I’m the one

              who strays, and if anything, I’d at least like to get too close to the sun.


              You point your fingers to the sun, quick, before it sets!

Late Summer

Late Summer

I

Afternoons languish like untensed muscles,

like a mind gone slack peering into a screen,

whole days awash in faint light, feint wind,

cloudless blue of old paint, dust-covered.

Time lowers down in the dry grass,

crunches under foot, whispering

softly to mask the speed of its passing. 

A crackling hush, a hushed absence.


II

Warm dry months stretch ahead like waves

glimmering ghostly above the ground, 

ocean of air, streaked window of the future.

Tonight’s moon is a waning gibbous,

ever-fading, ever-seeming to retreat.

Orbits break, patterns vanish like ash in water, 

vastness and sorrow, oceans of summer,

most ships safely reaching port.


III

Late summer days scatter like money

after a bubble implodes, stunned people

who thought it would last forever

scramble for all their pockets will hold.

The ship of living sails the ocean of time,

some of us dreaming close to the prow,

others below deck, clutching our bags.

Late summer, as though it has already died.


IV

Mostly we lived in great seclusion, far from

events and people of worldly importance.

When the rains finally came, we soaked up

all we could, we mirrored the leaves,

turning our insides up, downsides out, 

stretching through multiple contortions

to nourish our blanched bodies, dry roots,

water, seclusion, turbulent screens of cloud.


V

We pretended to be sleepwalkers, romantics,

anarchists, realists, anything but what we were,

which we never determined, moving about

with eyes closed and hands at our sides,

hoping to feel something without reaching for it.

Money was the great mystery of our days,

which people gave us freely until they realized

we had no way or plan to give it back.


VI

Every summer unreels like another childhood,

terrors of whispered-about corridors,

passageways through shrouded woodland trails,

night hovering within midday shadows,

undersides of leaves, stones, unfound doors.

Always some haunted tale awaiting the children,

doors into darkness locked behind them.

Somewhere out there an ocean, a wave cresting.


VII

Somewhere awaits a shore, a homeland,

ships have been sailing toward it 

for centuries, guided by tremulous captains,

steering their crews within sight of land,

before twists and turns of fate drive them

back out to sea, cruel fate, indifferent hand.

The long fingers of summer evenings close

around the wan throats of summer days. 

The Doppler Effect

we drown in the grey austro-hungarian rain,

thunderclaps arriving at the hauptmarkt two,

no three seconds after the lightning, you and i


soaked to bone and marrow and i still fail to

grasp why you would choose salzburg of

all places to decide to tell me your truth. here,


on wet, broken cobblestones where you didn’t

catch-stop my fall, my knee bloodied in front of

mozart’s house, near the shops where they sell


tortes and von trapp kitsch; your voice silent, my

brain shrill with resentment and utter indifference

to the baroque churches, the street music, sales on


lederhosen, costumed actors in tricorns hawking

opera. you make us stop at makartplatz number 9

to pay homage to doppler, the physicist who


makes receding stars burn red, and

sirens and voices fade in-out. you respect him. you always

prefer complete strangers. you laugh in the rain


and for the split second difference between sound

and light i watch you and recall joy. you decide to

play a game, you will run past doppler’s house —


some shallow homage to his wave theory, i infer,

to capture in selfie his connection between sound

and motion. you don’t ask me. you run towards


the river, i walk in the opposite direction, limping,

towards the fortress on the hill. you call out to me

but i cannot understand you from the distortion.

NOVUS Literary and Arts Journal
Lebanon, TN